Growing up, church was always encouraged and from a young age I can remember going, but I never understood the reason or the importance behind it. I didn’t see the value in what I could gain from a relationship with Jesus. Church felt like a bunch of rules and sounded like a lot of people who were supposed to express love, but what they were expressing felt like the opposite.
In high school sports were a large part of my life, it’s how I made friends and built relationships and my goal for the future was to play college basketball. I had always been told that I was a good leader and that I had potential, but I was always scared to try and work at something, because I was scared of failing and not living up to that potential. So I just buried myself in the things that my peers were involved in and did what everyone else was doing.
Thinking about it now, I’ve always felt a deep longing in my heart. I felt like my life had been building up to something, but that moment never came to be. I thought that moment was going to be playing college basketball, or finally figuring out what I was going to do with my life. How I was going to make an impact, how I was finally going to be fulfilled. But that moment never seemed to come and I continued to seek answers in all of the wrong places.
The first two years after high school, I started to really struggle with my purpose. I was trying to figure out what career path I wanted to take, but it went so much deeper than that. I didn’t understand the value I had as a human being, and the abundant life that God has created me for. It wasn’t until I surrendered my life to Him that all of that changed. I had just hit rock bottom in my search for a purpose, I had tried everything and nothing was getting me to that destination. But I just didn’t see the life that God had for me and the fulfillment and opportunities I would find in that.
I finally realized that I would never be ready to give up my own desires. I realized I was going to have to truly commit and surrender my life to Jesus. And that moment was in my truck on the way to work that morning, I finally just put it in God's hands, and from that moment on God has completely changed everything about my life.
That moment was about a year ago, but it feels like so much longer because of how much I’ve learned and grown. Being poured into and discipled for a while has now allowed me to turn around and do the same. I got involved with Challenge and the college ministry and joined a group of college guys who were meeting for a bible study group. I met Pastor Porfirio and since then he has been discipling me.
My original plan after graduating from HCC last year was to go to KSU and continue my degree in Education. But I started to feel a tug on my heart that God might have a different plan for my life. So I had a conversation with Pastor P, who had already mentioned to me before that he had seen some ministry potential within me. I told P that if he had anything in Hutchinson for me that I would stay, and the Lord is so faithful and provided that. He offered me the opportunity to be resident at the church for a year. So that I could continue to develop and grow. And since doing that, God has done so much in my life and in my heart.
My leadership capability has become so much greater and my understanding of people and their need for the gospel. God has really given me a passion for his people. I now see that value that I hold myself, how God created me, and how he created me with a purpose and a plan for my life. That God has laid out works in front of me, that I am to carry out, works that are unique to me. And I now see the value in other people too, and how lost some of us can be without Jesus, how we are all longing for something so much greater than ourselves, and that the God we serve is so faithful and whether or not we realize it, he has been knocking on our hearts for our whole lives. Getting the opportunity to do ministry has completely changed my life, being able to now help grow and disciple college students is just amazing. I have a new sense of purpose and it is so much bigger than me now. I don’t know what the Lord has for the rest of my life, but I can see how faithful and good he’s been in my past, and I know that the direction he is leading me is good, because it is for his honor and it is for his glory.
Jake Huhs
CrossPoint Hutchinson